The arty side of the spectrum

I don’t know how to refer to my art practice (and is that practice or practise? I never know), sometimes I love it, I’m in awe of it and other times (like now) it confuses me so much I can’t bear thinking about it or about other’s artwork. I don’t want to feel like this. I’m sure it has something to do with executive dysfunction but I don’t know what… yet.

I haven’t made any work since early this year. I created a few drawings that I haven’t documented yet. I will photograph them and put them in another post. Perhaps.

I have made a lovely friend here in blog land and she is encouraging me to write this post about my work. Thank you friend πŸ™‚

I’m hoping that in someway that writing this and putting pictures of my work up will help me move on. But move on from what? It’s such a tangled mess in my head. I haven’t exhibited my work since early 2013. Midway through that same year I got my autism diagnosis and I had a nervous breakdown, (they don’t call it that anymore).

The first batch are previous to 2013. The drawings are all completed with graphite (pencil). I do not like Β using charcoal, I find the sensation of it going across paper very unpleasant. The paintings are oil.

Elder and the Tor. 50 x 40 cm

Lasgarn Wood

Mynydd Garn Clochdy. 114 x 88.5 cm

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Two Pears Reflect

Walking Mynydd Garn Clochdy. 78 x 17 cm

Glastonbury Tor

Early Morning. 40 cm sq

Morning Haze. 18.5 x 17 cm

The following are what a nervous breakdown feels like…

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Each work has a title but I don’t feel that’s relevant at the moment.

Thanks for dropping by xx

Author: yarnandpencil

I'm a Christian on the autistic spectrum blogging about life and my art/craft practice.

38 thoughts on “The arty side of the spectrum”

  1. Hello, I was browsing the “drawing” tag when I came across this post. Your art immediately caught my attention. Your graphite work is amazing and I found your nervous breakdown pieces to be very expressive (especially the first three). I do hope you find your inspiration once again.

    Thank you for sharing and I would love to see more of your work!

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  2. Wow! Your work is fantastic. To be able to do such large drawings takes an incredible amount of skill and imagination which you have. I love your oils. They are so free. Don’t worry if you are having a period of blockage. It happens to most artists. It happens to me. I do some other creative activity to keep me going, like blogging and playing the ukulele. To write about it helps which you are doing. I look forward to seeing more of your work.

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  3. I’m so glad to see you’ve written this post and thank you for sharing your artwork. You have an incredible talent, the level of intricate details in these is mind blowing! You’ve inspired me to get creative again ☺️ xxx

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  4. I think your artwork is beautiful. I especially like your use of colour and the freedom in your oils. I understand your feelings about a creative block, my head feels pretty tangled too at the moment and I find it paralyses me. Writing and sharing will hopefully help – that’s what I’m trying to do. πŸ™‚

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  5. I can’t help thinking your pose with a couple that you must be extra pleased with.
    Let me add the comment that our world would be a better place when we learn to embrace neurodiversity. It’s not about ‘curing’ those who are neuro a-typical, but appreciating how each person is an important part of their community. For me embracing neurodiversity begins with accepting myself for how my brain has ‘rewired’ itself following my brain injury.

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    1. You are quite right Jasper, I am particularly proud of those two drawings, even now, about eight years later. My Aunt took those two photos. I was really excited to have her visit and it was the first time she had seen this work.
      I think I’m still learning to accept myself. But I’m getting there πŸ™‚

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  6. This is a great post and wonderful drawings too. Similarly, I haven’t made art in at least five years, which is odd considering it was such a huge part of my life for so long. I feel the same way as you, in that I don’t really see the point of making art because I don’t know what to do with it afterwards. I had an exhibition in London five years ago and collectors were interested in my work and there was a gallery who wanted to represent me, but I ignored them and decided I didn’t want to do it. I was very ill at the time and it all seemed too overwhelming, but I am trying to make art again. I hope you can do it too. I’m reminding myself that we all used to make art just because we wanted to and loved it. That is reason enough to start again.

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    1. Good for you in starting again. Thanks so much for sharing your story πŸ™‚ I am sure I will get back to it at some point, I’m not sure that I’m quite ready yet. Everybody’s comments have been so supportive and helpful. Thank you so much xx

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  7. your artworks are beautiful!!! i was especially drawn to the second one. you’re very creative. keep updating this blog, mainly for yourself as another creative outlet to express your other creative outlets. at the end of the day, as long as you’re happy and you find some form of satisfaction in it, that’s all that matters. πŸ™‚

    looking forward to reading more of your posts.

    cheers!

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  8. thanks for visiting my blog – thought I’d visit yours – and yes, I agree with the gist of the above comments – you are very talented, and please push past your depression, and take pride in your work!

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  9. WOW! Your work is BEAUTIFUL! You have such an amazing talent. You know, I especially love the pieces that express what you felt having a nervous breakdown. I had my first nervous breakdown about a year and a half ago and it was hell coming back from. I have these pictures though in my mind very similar to what you have drawn or painted, but I have never tried to sketch them. My feelings come out through writing, although the words don’t really make sense to anyone but me. I kind of think of it as a parallel universe or something. I am brand new to blogging, but I am sure to have a number of posts trying to describe the pictures in my mind. ANYWAY…. KEEP CREATING THESE GORGEOUS WORKS OF ART!!!!

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    1. Thank you so much. I’m sorry to hear you’ve been through this too; it sounds as if you are making good progress though…? It certainly is a battle that I’m still fighting. I started this blog in August and finding it a wonderful way not only to express myself but build a supportive community too. Very best wishes for your blog. I’ll pop over to have a look very soon πŸ™‚

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      1. Yes, I’m quite proud of how far I’ve come. That’s not to say I don’t still have horrendous days or weeks sometimes though. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder, anxiety, and chronic depression in Feb. of 2016. When I think back about that time and remember how awful I felt for so long, and can see where I am now, it makes me feel good. I learned so much about myself through that experience and how educating yourself is so important. I hope to help educate others with my blog.

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        1. I’m sure you will help educate others Crystal. I follow a lots of people who have bipolar, anxiety, depression, ADHD, ASD and so on and find it a very supportive community. I feel I am a better person because of what I’ve been through. We all appreciate that each of our experiences are different but there is a shared understanding which is wonderful. Thank you for sharing your experience πŸ™‚ ❀

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